.drowning.

rain pounds against the windows of my heart and floods the corners with puddles of emotional concern …you’re leaving drops of you everywhere

and soon ill forget what a day of sunshine stood for against the torrential floods of your misguided intent
I’m but a storm away from ruin, yet relentlessly you pursue the core of me, determined to crack my resolve and create small damp pools of triumph where warm refuge once had a home…
a house is not a home without love they say, but love can drown even the best swimmer
and my head, tilted up, chin fighting to keep air into these lungs, grows weary quickly
I’m dying for the very love I had hoped would keep me afloat

.desire.

close your eyes so I can feel your soul from the inside out
see me without looking at me
touch me without your skin against mine
I’m lost in the sound of your voice
and when I’m not near, I imagine your lips parting so that
my fingertips graze the softest parts moments before I kiss them
I crave each second, each minute, to watch the want in your body unravel
threads of your heart, pulled back together when we merge
so beautiful you are, that this ache is like a wretched thorn in my heart
but I’ll bleed it dry just to spend one more moment in your presence
passion breaks the silence between our paused speech and builds a bridge
where we meet again for the first time
I want your forever
because you are mine

"the cab ride"

outside the cab window the city lights sparkled like jewels that had been stuck into the night sky as the scenery whizzed by, only stopping to give a moment less blurred at an occasional red light. i felt hot air against my cheek as i turned to see the door open. she climbed in beside me and immediately the sweet scent of her filled the air and made me dizzy with desire. her lips parted to tell the driver her destination but it sounded like background noise as i eyed her from head to toe. her lips were lush and probably the most delicious part of her face besides her eyes, those seductive big brown eyes. she turned to me as the cab moved forward hugging the corners of the streets and suddenly we were thrown into each other, her breath against my face, as i found our lips inches from each other and she looked slightly mischievous before she grabbed my face with her cold hands and began kissing me. i melted at the instant her skin touched mine and grabbed her bottom lip between my teeth, sucking as she moaned. i pressed her against the window by her shoulders and felt her push back against me slightly trying to regain control, but i was stronger and i could tell she liked it. i felt the gaze of the cabbie's eyes in the mirror as i sucked on her tongue and her hands pulled my hair, but i didn't care. the windows began to mist over as she bit her lip to keep from moaning while i sucked on her neck, and my hands pushed their way beneath her layers of clothing and met her warm body quivering beneath them. she pulled my head closer to her mouth and whispered in my ear "i want you" as my hands began to roam her body. i kissed her neck, chin and collarbone as my hands caressed her breasts, squeezing her nipples between my fingertips. "fuck" she moaned arching her back, pushing herself against me. the cab jerked suddenly as the cabbie's eyes were glued to the backseat, instead of the road, giving her the advantage over me, so she pushed back against me and i fell against the seat as she straddled me, smiling. with her hands against my shoulders she leaned down and kissed me passionately while my i wrapped my hands around her waist, then dug my nails into her back causing her to bite down hard on my lip. the taste of blood mingled between our tongues as she sucked on my lip and her hands went up my shirt. i grabbed her ass as i felt her begin to grind against me. i unbuttoned her jeans with one hand and slowly put my hand between her legs, feeling her soaking wet, as she gasped and looked down at me. she leaned over to kiss me as i drew circles on her clit with my fingers. her hand pushed my fingers inside of her as she moaned. i felt myself get wet as they became immersed in her sweet stickyness. "shit" i said biting my lip as she moved against my fingers faster and i pushed deeper inside. "more" she said still grinding against my fingers, so i slid another finger inside of her as i heard the cabbie on his walkie talkie say "you guys aren't going to believe this shit". "sure you can take more?" i asked her pushing another finger inside of her as she moaned and rode against my fingers, harder getting wetter and wetter. she leaned over and bit my neck as i slowly curled my fingers up inside her, tucked in my thumb and began fisting her. i felt her teeth dig deep into my shoulder as she moaned and relaxed her muscles so that i could dig further inside of her. she whimpered in my ear clinging to me as the heat between our bodies became entangled in sweat drenched clothes. i pumped my fist slowly in and out of her until i felt her muscles tighten up & her body begin to shake. her cum dripped all around my fingers and i waited for her to stop shaking as i slowly pulled my hand out of her. she looked me dead in the eye as she sucked each and every finger dry and i felt my clit throb, as i tried to close my legs. "um we're....here. ride's on me. seriously," the cabbie said out of breath as we both looked up at him & then at the brownstone outside the window. she climbed off me and we straightened our clothes. "wanna come up?" she said smiling devilishly. "why not?" i said smiling back as we excited the cab for round II.