..uncertainty

hangs like a thick cloud of distrust
your words your
space
the things you left out
the lies by omission, someone I once knew called them
I fight to find the truth behind eyes
that leave me with questions
my heart burns like a fire raging out of control
out of your reach
you never really held it anyway
asleep I fight the fears in my dreams and then wake to find
you're still the same
but I guess I've changed

Published with Blogger-droid v1.5.4

sting.

catch myself falling into the fallacy in your eyes
the tone of your insincerity
i live, starved for a love that nourishes
but i hang on now
by a thin thread
a thread that frays from the edges
of my sanity
i need you like a hole in my head
a knife in my chest
it stings
and it never seems to heal

Published with Blogger-droid v1.4.9

bleeds.

you give and you give til your soul bleeds
ink instead of blood
til your eyes cry salt
instead of tears
til the stinging becomes
a welcome pain

your hands reach for a love
that was never within your grasp
for a hype that never had any hope
the light turns into darkness
and the only solace you find
is in between the blue lines

if writing away the hurt could make
it disappear into thin air
then i’ve written my weight in gold
and shouldn’t even care

but a heart that loves, lives
and a person with faith, gives
and even though it hasn’t come full circle
just yet
i’ll give until my soul bleeds
ink instead of blood
but not to you
not for you