love's microfilm.

i cant wait to wake and find yesterday’s a lifetime away
no need to sift through old hurts or
current wounds with scabs that won’t heal
present pleasure is all I’ve decided to feel
sent messages left words, empty poems and half eaten desserts
discarded into memory’s trash
the taste, the pain, the cuts stripped of their senses claim
forgetting to remember that what has been
will never be the same

it’s hard to hear that heartbeat now, so many miles away
so many times this record’s played
i know the words, but it still sounds like blame
in between the music of each refrain

count the times, the cries, the kisses to soothe
safe again from the passion you sought to abuse
dreams fade into the mist and nightmares are your only friend
when you wake up screaming about the inevitable end

caught your fear in the palm of my hand instead of
pulling it into my soul as I’ve always managed to do
separated the poisoning of my loving heart
from the toxin that that is you.

longevity's fail.

reaching inside and around
hiding within the
labyrinth of my soul

i’d say find me here but
you won’t
you can’t
i won’t let you
it’s safer this way
for me

chasing the butterflies of yesterdays hope
as i watch them fly,
watch them fly away
into the sunset
the choice of freedom is a sure bet
captivity holds in it
the possibility of death

fingertips tingle at the brush
of contentment’s breeze
passes by quickly to awaken
my desire to breathe
close my eyes and inhale
the scent of longevity’s fail

foundation.

all of these things bearing down on me,
wearing me down, to the very rim of my core
motion immobilization – been here a time before
solutions melt like sugar splashed by water
disintegrate into matter
that doesn’t matter
i don’t matter

selfish promises that left behind lesions
on my memory
raw open and fresh, not ready to heal
not ready to feel
and most certainly unable to deal

these fragments of life’s glass rocks
stick in my throat and leave open gashes
on my hands as they fight back
against the economy and heartaches attacks
trying to rebuild the foundation,
survived barely
molded and cracked