infatuation

altercation within the membranes of her infatuation
she lies there awake in the dark, all alone
and spits rhymes like hatred only she'd own
back at society, keep throwing those stones

the object of her stream of consciousness
draped in a cloud of secrecy & alteration
lips that move in rooms that bounce sound like
audible fornication

pregnant and barefoot in the corners of her mind
drunken & high off of infatuation's ability to defy
this is where the beginning of the end lies
ducts dried from years of dirty tears she cries

deep gutters become grooves in the space between
and she stands carrying the weight of just one more
speaking in egyptian hieroglyphics to verbally fuck what you mean
slamming shut any possibility of communication's doors

saturated

arms length away
always quick to escape my grasp
and easily shut down
switched flipped to the other state of mind
leaving the one fraught with emotions behind

index finger lined with layers of words
from touched lips and moments missed
never felt a .... quite like this
erased, displaced, exiled and dismissed

thoughts run the length of the stream
leaking from porous holes within a faulty canoe
pierced by the saturated tension building
between me and undeniably you

sinking slowly into waves that silence the cries
on a dusty shore
i'll be sure to place you where i found you,
weren't you happier there before?

backseat.

i took a backseat to the fear in your heart,
rode quietly and sat still afraid that any move,
any sound, might cause you turn
cause you to tell me to leave
so there i was
caught on a trip to someplace unknown
as my eyes captured each new road, each twist
like a snapshot in my mind, each one without the ability to rewind
and then as the light blue turned to dark skies
clouds found their way and rain began to pour
i wasn't really sure where we were anymore
raindrops fell and stung like acid
burned and ached inside my soul
straight through to the other side
another lied

in the night

in the night, the stars dance across the moon
and land on that distant pillow
where we’d lay
face to face with just one pulse
between the two of us
and words are found but wasted
so silence instead tells the story
in eyes that have hope for tomorrow
but don’t cling so tightly to today
it will just become another memory
anyway
the sky watches as
we make fire dance within four walls
and outside the day begins to rise
the sun, a flame borne of our passions
and of night’s cool demeanor
sets the horizon ablaze
burning all day, long into dusk
when night again will capture
one pulse
one more time

hostage

hold you hostage within my thoughts
tie you to the chair of my emotions
and wrap the silk of my affections
around your mouth
to silence
any worry, any confusion, any doubt

if you let me kidnap your heart
then i can show you what this is all about

bind your hands with the kisses of my love
still your feet with the strings of my laughter
and wet your cheeks
with the tears of my strength
so you know that being your one and only
is all i'm after

soul death

i'm bleeding from my soul
it's the kind of wound you can't see,
the kind someone like you wouldn't know how to heal
first, you'd have sift through the coal buried deep in your chest
and be pumped full of emotion to feel

time stands still around me, no breeze, no leaves moving,
the air just is
and i'm choking on my last breath
the last bet
the last thing you left
the last time i wept
this shit has to stop

fucked over, upside down and sideways
fuckable moreso than lovable
daggers pierce me at all angles
and fornicate with my self respect
self worth
self
becomes nothing
and everything that was
is dark now
the shadows sweep the pain of today
under the carpet of tomorrow
and i don't want to remember
you this way
or me

liberate me

liberate me from this enslaved country inside my mind
the one that keeps me shackled to old ways, old situations, old beliefs
the one that feeds me negativity, split sideways, then ricochets back into
my way of thinking

yes, free me of these burdens and this pain
find a day when the sun won't cease to shine, and the rain is too dry

i'm ready for my slice of the good life's heavenly pie
i heard it tastes good

dope[ness]

i want to
inhale her into my lungs
put her to my lips, feel the sweet taste that lingers
and feel her push her way through my throat
linger in the back
then blow her out
blow her out
and watch her rise
she gets me that high
each pull
each hit from her lyrical THC
so flows the rush of her verbal dopamine
through my body, through her touch
waiting, anticipating the next taste
the next
and the next
and the next
like a fiend
unable to overdose
but willing to try
each time that she enters me and i close my eyes
each time she brings me
a little more high
hold her deep inside until i can't take anymore
til i feel my lungs about to burst
til i feel my body cry from release
release
release
and she's completely inside
each and every part of me
roaming free, roaming me,
owning me
and i breathe

whateva

fuck it
tired of giving so much energy and time
fuck it
underappreciated
values depreciated
soul is emaciated
from all of these people
these things
these scenarios
these broken wings
tryna fly
but can't seem to soar
want to run
but can't seem
to feel anything below my knees
please
redeem me
i'm feeling worthless

"don't tamper with"

stuck in thought, rhythm and rhyme
beating the drums of last night's passion
well into the morning of today
it sounds so much sweeter when the sun gives rise
it sounds so much sweeter this time

remnants of whispers moist upon my lips
before my fingers touch, before my body curls
its way into the words that tell, the words that heal
the words that unspoken
she can already feel
somebody stop me from being too real
too late to replace my
"dont tamper with" seal

she broke it
gently and then stole it
told me to just let it be and she'd hold it
i can't go back
but forward stands still just the same
or it is just moving so swiftly
i'm unable to keep up the pace?
never
i'll finish this race
nothing will stop me
not time not distance not even miles of space
i'm ready